Refinnej ♥

Straight through my heart.

2011-10-30T11:03:00.001+08:00

I didn't know I was causing you so much irritation.
You should've told me.

I didn't know you didn't wanna care about me anymore.
You should've let me know.

I didn't know I wasn't your priority, until yesterday.
I should've known.

At least I know where I stand now.
Irritating, unwanted, unneeded.
Broken hearted. :'(

Mind's Cafe Trip :)

2011-10-21T01:43:00.001+08:00

It was FUN-TASTIC! :DDDD
Thanks baby for bringing me there! I love you :333
I really enjoyed the trip cause i laughed alot seriously.
Even though starting quite alot of people late :x
But this trip was definitely worth it!
Love the durian game. So I guess it's good to have alot of strength huh? :)
I'm sure baby enjoyed today as much as I do.
Still laugh till face red like apple & so ji dong also! Hehe I love seeing baby happy! Cause it makes me happy too. Hehe! :)))

On the other hand!
It's school time in like 3 more days.
Which also means money saving time!!!
Gonna try to save as much as I can.
Cause the next few weeks I'd probably have to spend alot :x
So yeah! That's about it for tonight.
I'm tired. Sweetest dreams baby!
Dream of me? <3

Baby 生病了 :(

2011-10-17T23:19:00.001+08:00

本来今天baby打算带我去吃好料的！
不过他又咳嗽又喉咙不舒服，
所以我也不想让他吃油腻的食物。。
我的kimgary啊。。(ToT)/~~~

咳，真受不了我自己。。
我的人太好了吧！
我自己也那么觉得。呵呵 (^.^)v
baby 要快快好起来哦！
然后在带我去吃好料*\(^o^)/*

早日康复亲爱的，我爱你！(^з^)-☆

Do you even care?

2011-10-16T11:37:00.001+08:00

When my mood gets down, do you care?
When you have to choose between your game and the sad me, obviously you chose your game and threw me to one side :'(
It really shows how much I mean to you right now..
Fk games :(

Morning world! <3

2011-10-15T11:05:00.001+08:00

It's down to one last week of holidays! Sad much :(
But there's gonna be many outings coming up soon! Hehehehehe. And all of them with my baby:3

First it's the Kbox outing, together with Von and Jo and maybe Nat.
Then it's the mind's cafe with baby's friends.
Then it's the Halloween with my sister and maybe a few others.
Then it's the zoo with baby only! :D

So many things coming up~ Woots! :p
But have to keep spending argh D:
Don't think I can save up for my braces le.. Sigh :'(

3rd couple tee :)

2011-10-13T22:28:00.001+08:00

Hehehe, went out to Jurong Point with my beloved today!!
Like damn far right! But I enjoyed it all the same :3
We went to look around for food cause I haven't eaten my lunch. Though I said I wanted to skip it in the first place. Lol :p
Hehs. Bought myself some kebabs and sushi to eat!
Jurong Point is seriously quite big. Don't even know where is where :x
We bought some cheese sausage and prata roll together with ice blend at the market place too:D
So yummmmyyyyy! Wish I had more junk food to eat :(
Then we also went to mini toons to buy sweets :D
Baby is small kid so like to eat sweet. So I pei him go buy and eat a little bit only:p

& We bought our 3rd couple tee from spade there too! Super naiseee one, :))
Maybe I'll get another one for baby some other time <3

After that we went back to Pasir Ris to catch "the thing".
Not a bad movie but still will scared when watching:x

Hehehe. && not forgetting this! Thanks baby for sending me home, many xoxos! I love you! :3333

Boring holidays.

2011-09-17T17:08:00.001+08:00

Thought that i'd have worked the whole holiday this sem but then again no I did not.

Job searching somehow feels more tougher as I grow. Seriously?
I mean I look young and all, probably that is why it's a harder challenge for me to find a job. I hope I didn't pull Bibi down tgt with me :/ He could have easily went to find a job with his bro but no he didn't. Hopefully there still are short term jobs left..

I'm sucha loser..

2011-09-02T13:30:00.002+08:00

I just realized what a loser I have been all my 18 years of living..
Just what have I learnt all these years?
What do I know?
Which places have I been to?
What have I accomplished so far?
Or even just, what exactly is my forte???

I actually do not have any answers to all these questions.
& can only shake my head if anyone asks.
People like me just sucks in life.
No money = No life. Live with it.

P.S. I suck to the core. I repeat, the core.

喜欢一个人

2011-08-30T01:18:00.001+08:00

喜欢一个人，你会莫名其妙的发脾气，你会莫名其妙的做你平常不会做的事，你会莫名其妙留意他的事，你会莫名其妙的在意他说的每句话。因为，你喜欢。

喜欢一个人，不管他做错什么事，也是别人的错，不管是伤害，你都有借口为他辩解，不管别人怎么说，他都是最好的。因为，你喜欢。

喜欢一个人，你会寂寞，你会失眠，你会陶醉，你会忘我。因为，你喜欢。

喜欢一个人，可以是快乐的，可以是幸福的，可以是美好的，可以是梦幻的。因为，你喜欢。

如果你都经历过以上的过程，那，你成长了。

Baby，我拥有太多太多的缺点了，根本不值得你的爱。
我真的很想让你自己一个人开开心心的，不过我好舍不得。。
舍不得你的抱，你开的玩笑，你的小孩子脾气，你的笑，你的任性，你的吵闹，总之就是你的每一部分。。咳。对不起，只能怪我太自私。

不想放下，也放不下。。

原来越是爱的深，越是容易吵架

2011-08-30T00:53:00.000+08:00

任性是因为有感情

一个人对另外一个人的感情如果很一般，就很客气，很有礼貌，很尊重人家跟你不同的东西，有一种求同存异的倾向；而感情越好，对对方越关心，求同的倾向越强，达到一个峰值，也就是最高点，就接近全面求同。

明知对方对自己有感情，感情强烈，就越不讲理、苛刻，有点专制了。这种情况，也存在于母子之间。母亲最爱孩子，但是最难沟通。感情好反而不讲理了。爱情就是强烈的感情。情和理是矛盾的，强烈的感情就是强烈的不讲理，这也是人性的一种缺陷，可人性的美好也在这种不讲理之中。

美国的《当代心理学》杂志有一篇文章讲美国的家庭暴力。两个人虽然相爱，但两个人不一样：第一，男人心里有鬼。据研究，男人有一种多恋的倾向。第二，女人嘴巴比较厉害，滔滔不绝，男人理短就少讲话、不讲话，或者溜了。女人偏偏要男人当场认输，男人忍无可忍，最后就用拳头来对话。这在我们中国就叫“报以老拳”。

女人为什么老揪着男人不放，就因为爱他。爱的反面不是恨，而是冷漠，你去跟别人好了——正好，我本来就不爱你了。

关于情侣吵架的种种问题，有科学研究表明,年轻时候吵架比较多的夫妻(情侣)，以后会是最相爱,生活最幸福的。情侣之间吵架是很常见的事情。我觉得这种事应该从下面几个方面来想：

1:有科学研究表明，年轻时候吵架比较多的夫妻(情侣)，以后会是最相爱,生活最幸福的。

2:如果你们不是因为一些原则性很强的大问题而争吵，比如对方出轨，或者生活习惯，性格完全相互排斥什么的。如果不是为这个，只是为点小事，那么我认为你们需要更好的磨合一下。用你们的爱多包容对方一些。(磨合是基本上夫妻都需要也都必须做的事)

3:你们经常吵架说明了你们都很非常在意对方，所以期望值过高，所以不满足就会吵。这从根上说是因为太喜欢对方。

4:请你们好好的包容下对方，为自己喜欢的人受点委屈迁就一下对方这有什么啊。这也是件浪漫的事。不要计较那么多，那是你心爱的人呀，为什么不能让一下他呢？ （为什么你要和我计较。。我不是你心爱的人吗？）):

两个人在一起是多么幸福的事情呢，为什么总是吵架扰乱你们的幸福呢？没有不吵架的情侣，就算两个人再怎么合得来也避免不了分歧。还有，如果吵架避免不了，不要太较真，想想自己是很爱他（她）的，怎么舍得他（她）难过。

吵架的原因是因为你们都有不一样的意见和看法。。或是对方做了某些东西让你看不惯的。。其实你想避免的话，从她身上行不通，那么就拿自己开刀吧。。这要求自己是真的有那个脾气能忍能理解他。。或者你情商好。。懂得在有矛盾的时候能很好的与他沟通协商。。自然而然你们吵架的次数就肯定会少。。是减少了。。不是一次也不吵。。

不吵架那是不可能的，多包容，多体谅，多站在他的立场、角度思考，多为他想想，不要计较你的得失。。。。这些说着容易做着难，你自己去慢慢体验吧。

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Insignificance.

2011-08-27T10:50:00.000+08:00

First you pangseh me just for some scuba thingy.
Couldn't you go there later? Like what we have already said before?
I don't like last minute changes. You should know. :/
Then you started playing your game, and replies me slower.
Would you keep your word? About what we've agreed on that night?

This actually lead me to think about the past few days..
Have you been playing when you said you were doing something else?
I hope not.. :/
Sigh. You said you didn't want us to quarrel.
But at the same time I wonder did you keep your word.
I really wish you did. & I really wish you would.

I just hate how insignificant I am to you. SUPER ABHOR.

One last paper to go!

2011-08-26T22:41:00.001+08:00

Teeheeee, it's two down and one to go!
Thankfully, our toughest paper is over so we have nothing to fret about already x)
MKTCS paper was pretty tough today man~
But oh wells. Over already :)

Gonna go gaigai with me love on Monday after exams! Woots :D
Hope we can find something yummy to eat there too :P
Now I feel like spending ALL my money on foooooddddd and I mean ALLLLLL D:
Hungry hungry. Never eat dinner againzxc.

Blahhhhh, wish I had something interesting to blog about.
My posts are like boring... ):
Ciao~!

Dear Baby,

2011-08-23T23:48:00.000+08:00

You must be reading my blog now! Hehehehe :3
Just changed my blog skin. Itchy hand again! :p
Exams in a few days timeeeee, zomgzomgzomgodddd.
Baby must jiayous, waiting for you to beat my c.gpa! :p

Anyways, I wanna thank you, for now our problem with your game has finally resolved!!!!!!!! :)
& I hope that it will stay this way. >.<
You know I won't exactly know how long you play your game, but do keep your promise okay.
I trust you ♥

&, sorry for the quarrels, as usual I did not kept my word ):
I just wanted attention, probably a little too much..
I don't like quarreling over minor stuffs, but I don't know why I do it all the time. :/
I know I haven't changed. I never did. I realized how immature I was, ever since the beginning of our relationship.
I always cry, and asked myself why this happens all the time. But I never knew the answer.
Again & again, I know I've failed you.
But again & again, you gave me chances..

I just wish.. that I could do better.

First trip too USS with baby!

2011-06-14T16:00:00.001+08:00

Hehehhe! Thanks baby for bringing me thereeee~ Even though I paid myself. LOL :D

Soooo glad the weather was nice enough, but then again sad cause baby's neck pain. ):
Awwww.

Places we went and rides we took there:
#1. Accelerator @Sci-Fi !
#2. Revenge of the Mummy @Ancient Egypt !
Only bad thing about pyramid is that I can totally see nothing. LOL!But oh wells, the speed was preetty good though;)
#3. Enchanted Airways @Far Far Away !
Not bad for a Junior Roller Coaster I guess :)
#4. Canopy Flyer @The Lost World !
So did not expect the ride to be that fast and that insecure! But it was definitely fun :D
#5. Rapids Adventure @The Lost World !
Was pretty good, but I didnt get to sit with bibi ): He was soaked wet! :p
#6. A Crate Adventure @ Madagascar !
Interesting and pretty scenes inside :D
#7. HUMAN & CYCLON @Sci-Fi ! :D
It was damn crazy! Couldnt not think of final destination 4 when I was on it. XD
Human is less secure and scary I suppose? Love the Cyclon ride (L)
#8. WaterWorld @The Lost World !
Great show that can make you wet! :x
#9. Shrek 4-D Adventure.
Aircondition-ed and gret seats were the best thing. :p
#10. Monster Rock @Hollywood !
Best show of all with comfy seats and good views :D Love it!

Ate @ Goldilocks in Far Far Away , was pretty good but "if only there were fries" - Quoted by bibi :p

Hahaha, anyways I enjoyed meself a lot baby ! (L)
Hope you did too despite your neck pain! I love you tons!
XOXO :3

Oh, and did I mention how expensive the locker was?
It's like free for 30-50mins depending on the numbr of lockers available.
the next 20mins cost us like 3$. !@#$%^&* Scammers. xD

Happy 10th month!

2011-05-29T15:55:00.000+08:00

Babyyy, I'm sorry I made you feel neglected yesterday. ): I hope you can understand some times ): I doing project.. I will find for you but you have to let me. I'm sorry. I wish I could see you today. I wish )':

I know we might not be happy every day, but I hope you won't let it affect you through our days together. I really wish you will be happy with me everyday. I know it is possible but sometimes we let our feelings overtake us and make ourselves more sad. I hope it will happen lesser in future? :)

Happy 10th month my baby, I may not be the best girl in the world for you, but I'll always be trying. (L) Loving youuu forever & alwaysssss. :3 Please be happy okay? Sarang hae. <3

BABIBU!

2011-05-21T22:20:00.004+08:00

Hehehe babi came my house today, thanks for your laptop (L) A pity I cant press enter now so everything will be in a line :x Hahah. I always enjoy myself when Im with you, you should know that (: Enjoyed laughing at your funny way of talking, idk why its just so funny !! xD but i loikeeee. hehehe. baby can you come my house more oftennnn, pleaseeee? :) i love youuuuu forever & always baby, i promise you that :3

WO HEN HUAI!!!!

2011-05-21T21:09:00.001+08:00

IM VELI NAUGHTY!!!!

Global warming is showing it's signs.

2011-05-09T21:56:00.000+08:00

Burning, humid, stuffy, totally on fire!!! :(

Boohoooo. The weather is like frigging hot naoooo D:

Hurrrrrrr. T.T

Everyday go school like cannot focus leyyy!

Siannn. All like have to think think think.

I'm no good at things which requires creativity. ):

Babbyyyyy~ I love you! <3333333333333333

2011-04-19T14:46:00.000+08:00

2 hours plus of cycling with babi ysd can really kill me. LOL.

We rented the bike for 3 hours but the time was still pretty tight D:

Reached changi beach but didnt have much time to play anw,

so we just rested somewhere before cycling back to pasir ris park.

Well, even though I got dizzy & almost blacked out, :x

I've enjoyed laughing along the way cause my baby is too cute. (:

Anyways after cyclingg, it was time for some aircon and fooooood.

Teeheee. We then walked slowly to the park, love to hear babi singg (L)

The moon was really bright ysd night too!

Which proves to say that weather forecast is not accurate at all :)

Whatever shit this is no mood to post liao.

Bye.

2011-04-16T21:04:00.000+08:00

Sometimes there are just some things that even words can't describe.. ):

2011-04-15T16:41:00.001+08:00

Sorry if I won't start the conversation first.
I won't want to spoil your mood for the rest of the day.
Or even just any other day anymore..
Am trying hard here, :/
Have fun. ♥

2011-04-15T15:46:00.001+08:00

I miss you... Sigh.

2011-04-10T18:26:00.001+08:00

Those tears just come out way too easily.
I haven't even be en thinking about anything and I cried.

All I wanted was someone to talk to.
Would it kill you to cheer me up a little?
Would it?

Sigh.

Happy you, happy me (L)

2011-04-09T23:23:00.000+08:00

BABYYYYY~!
We haven't been quarreling the past 2 days, good job!
Keep it up okay! LOL. :P
Enjoyed a lot a lot during the holidays with you :D
Don't want school to start soooooooo bad ):
Can't wait to see you again~ BADMINTON! ^-^

Thanks for the joy baby, I love you MOST-EST. <3 :))))

2011-04-05T22:10:00.000+08:00

Fcken stop doubting me.
I don't care if you don't trust me.
Don't fucken DOUBT & ASSUME.
I stay faithful FYI. I'm not the person you think I am okay.
Just why must you say I'm socialising with other guys E-VE-RY-TIME?
Seriously, I never. I tell you, I NEVER.
I swear my life on this okay.
Maybe you missed those times when I keep assuming you're chatting with other girls.
You like that is it? I don't think so, right?
So please, I don't wanna quarrel every time..
I really don't.. Sigh.

2011-04-05T16:24:00.000+08:00

You don't like my company.

Period.

STARBURN!

2011-04-05T00:47:00.000+08:00

Went to AmkHub with Bibi today :D
Movie was cute! But the popcorn sucked :x
Enjoyed the foods XD Too bad no durians. Expensive :(
Buttttt, today was a still great day spent with Bibi nonetheless. ^-^
I'm sorryy..
Cause we might have quarreled a little near the end..
But I guess it was worth it after all? :p

I love youuuuu <3

I finally know now..

2011-04-03T15:23:00.001+08:00

That you have never trusted me even though you said you did. )':
Why did you lie..
You know it hurts more now that it comes out from you that you don't trust me at all.
Even if so WHY DID YOU LIE!?

I'd rather you tell me the truth.
My trust for you have gone down by a bit again today.
Do you realise it?
In the past, when you said you'd stop playing. You really did.
But now, yes you said, & I trust.
& therefore I get disappointed. Because you didn't mean what you say.

& now I found out that you don't mean it when you say you trusted me,
my trust for you dropped a little more down again.
However, my trust for you is still thissssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss much.
Can you feel it? )':
I really love you. And love needs trust.

Because as a saying goes, there is no love without trust.
Do you love me? If you do, then why do you not trust anymore )':

I love you baby. I really do. :'(

2011-03-30T18:50:00.002+08:00

你怎么可以说话不算数？ )':

Heartbroken

2011-03-29T10:14:00.001+08:00

Why did I find things to upset myself :'(
Am I just stupid or stupid?!?!!?! :(
Yes, I deleted facebook. But I trusted you not to add girls.
But you still did. :'(
Was there a need to change your pass?
Afraid I might delete chiobus again? :'(
Sigh. I trusted you..

Happy 8th month to you..
Must be happy since I can no longer control who you add in fb.
Happy for you...
Just why am I trying so hard for :'(
I deleted all my social networking sites..
Jut because you said you didn't like me using it.. :'(
I'm learning gunz now..
even though I hated playing shooting games..
But just because you like it.. :'(
I deleted every guy contact I have in my phone..
Just so you will trust me that I'm not a flirt.. :'(
Even if they text me, I'll tell them my boyf doesn't like it and asked for them to stop texting..
Just because I only wanted you.. :'(
Just.. why? :'(

原来你什么都不要

2011-03-27T23:19:00.000+08:00

I feel like spamming old sad songs on my blog now. Damn :(

2011-03-27T23:14:00.001+08:00

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

2011-03-27T22:38:00.000+08:00

#1. I'm going crazy by Se7en.
#2. Obsession by Stevie Hoang.
#3. Without You by Mariah Carey.
#4. Keep you much longer
#5. 好听
#6. Addicted by Stevie Hoang.
#7. 一个人勇敢
#8. One Step at a time by Jordin Sparks.
#9. 草戒指 by Yuming and Jane.
#10. 你没想像中爱我

Skipping 14 cause it's a family photo post. I don't really have one in years.

Sorry for the stupid things.

2011-03-27T22:26:00.001+08:00

I went to the park today, it was supposed to look all sunny and bright, but no.
I walked on, with my umbrella open.
Sat by the usual place, before it started pouring.
But it wasn't long before the rain became a slight drizzle.
I thought the rain would stop, but no. It didn't :(

Stayed under the rain sitting by the rock for more than an hour.
Didn't wanna leave. But I was soaking wet even though I had my umbrella open :/
It felt good though, for the first time.
I actually let the rain wash down on me.
Then the rain got really really heavy.
It was so cold that I had to go, & my umbrella is like slanted to one side now seriously.

I walked around, soaking wet. Stayed under a shelter till I was dry a little.
The rain lasted for 2hours or longer.
Went to toilet to dry myself up, before walking home.
I don't know how or what I should be feeling.
I hope this is just a nightmare waiting for me to wake up from it.

It really ain't easy hiding the sadness.
But I'm trying my best :)
Back to the strong girl I used to be.

2011-03-27T14:15:00.001+08:00

Life changes every minute of every day.

2011-03-19T12:18:00.003+08:00

You lose friends. You gain friends.
You realize your friend wasn’t ever really your friend,
and that person you used to hate can make a really good friend.

You look for love. You find love. You lose love.
You realize all long that you’ve been loved.

You laugh. You cry. You laugh so hard that you cry.
You do this, you do that. You really wish you hadn’t done that.
You then learn from that and are glad that you did.

You have your ups. You have your downs.
You see good movies. You see bad movies.
You wonder if your life is just one big movie.

You look at others and wish you were them.
You then realize who they are and are glad that you’re you.
You love life. You hate life.

In the end you just find yourself happy to be living life, no matter what’s thrown at you.

Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

2011-03-19T01:34:00.005+08:00

Skipping Day 12 because it's asking about tumblr ;D

Dear bibi ,
To tell you the truth , I would love to take more photos with you but I shy to ask :$ LOL .
I'm not joking okay . Hahaha .
I'm pretty envious of couples who take millions of photos together & stil look so good in each and every picture taken .
Though I'm not usually photogenic all the time and I don't really take photos that often >.<
Still , I wanna keep these memories with you no matter the picture turns out nice or no nice ^-^

& thanks for the manicure , :p Hehehe .
First time a guy painted my nails for me . HAHA ! <3
Andand, sad part coming ,
I'm sorry if I hurt you unknowingly at times ,
but that does not give you the reason to hurt me back twice the amount yeah .. :x

Please forgive me no matter what as I know I will forgive you even if you hurt me till my heart break into a million pieces .
Yeah , that's how much I will tolerate for you ♥
& even though I might be sad or angry at you , I will still tell you I love you because love never stops .
Neither does love has any past tense to it , because it's now or never ♥

Lastly, I wanna tell you that ...
You're the sweetest and cutest thing ever baby , Sarang Hae :3

XOXO.

Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends

2011-03-19T01:05:00.002+08:00

Taken during 7th March eating steamboat @ Von's place :)

I know I wear a fake smile, but i can't seem to smile right without a nice set of teeth :(

Ps; I now know how small I really look .

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

2011-03-19T00:35:00.000+08:00

My current blog song is one of them !
But not forgetting T-Shirt by Shontelle ♥

Can't really think of any other songs now but usually it's love songs I listen to :)

Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days

2011-03-19T00:20:00.001+08:00

Okayyyyyy . I'm BORED :(
& since bibi is like working right now I shall BLOG . (Y)

Let's see ..
Something I'm proud of ..
Hmmm ..
I guess it's that my love for my boyf still stays strong up till now ? x)
Hehehe . We may have fights every now & then but it's alright . <3
I love him & that's how it's gonna be in many many years down the road :p

But probably one day he'll get scared of me loving him so much . :O
Oh wells , I just hope he won't leave me cause he thinks I'm too sticky to him :x
Hahahaha , baby please don't ever doubt when I say that you're really the best thing I've ever had .

I love you .

Truly , madly , deeply . ♥

Dear Boyfriend,

2011-03-16T23:46:00.006+08:00

It has been a rough time for us the past few days.. Maybe the past few months to you even.. I'm sorry baby. Sorry for all the quarrels. I promised to change, but I didn't change at all. You got more and more disappointed. I feel sad for you too :( I didn't want to be the one who's ruining your life or fking your life up. I hope you'll understand.

不是我不听话，而是我不懂得应该怎么样去改变，改变成你心目中想要的那个女孩。。

I'm sorry if I could not meet up to your expectations, but one day, I just hope that one day you will love me for me. Not saying that it should only be you putting in the effort.. But of course me myself, I will try to change. Try to be that girl that you wish/thought I was. I will be. But you've got to give me time okay :)

I love you baby,

XOXO.

J.L.W 1314 (L)

It strange to know how missing someone can hurt that bad. Ouch.

2011-03-03T18:46:00.002+08:00

Yes I miss you, but you don't :(
You must be having fun now without me. Sigh.
I feel like I'm not needed in your life.
Do you even miss me when you're out with your friends?
Just a text from you is so hard to get.
Sigh. Yes, I'm sad.

I really really sad right now. Hais. I miss you till it hurts.
:'(

Tears

2011-02-21T23:03:00.001+08:00

No, I can't hold back any longer.
It hurts way too much.

Everytime you insult, you lie, you be sarcastic.
Just why are you speaking to me like this?
I don't feel like your girlfriend.
I don't feel that I deserve all these harsh words either.
I hate this.
I hate the things you say to make me feel this bad.
I hate everything that comes out when you're mad because I know those are the things that you truly meant.
I hate all these heartbreaks you gave me.
Didn't you promise to make me feel happy?
Didn't you said you wanna be the one to change me?
Didn't you?
Didn't you..? :'(

莫一天，我期待和你笑得灿烂，回头看爱都在。

2011-02-18T20:31:00.000+08:00

2011-02-18T20:04:00.001+08:00

Today I was sad..
Sad that the couple tee we had, was nothing more than a shirt to you. :(

Today I was sad..
Sad that you've stop doing the little things you did before that made me smile.
One of it was the hugs. :(

Today I was sad..
Sad that you thought you meant nothing to me..
Why would I play hide and seek with you that day then? I could've just let you go..
But no, you mean a whole lot to me. & that's why you're worth the chase. :(

Today I was sad..
Sad that when i thought about that time when you hide from me, you asked me to leave.
And now with me doing the same, you don't even care.
Is this wanting me? Cause I really can't feel it :(

Today I was sad..
Sad for the fact that you're hiding from me again..
You said I liked to MIA in your facebook status.
Since when did I? Did you even bothered asking what I was doing..
Nope :(

Today I was sad..
Sad that when I said you wanted nothing to do with me,
and said I won't be available on my phone anymore, you just replied;
"K then." :'(
You promised not to..
You said you'll use okay..
And by replying k it meant that you really do mean it..

I guess this is probably what you wanted..

Baby I miss you. ):

2011-01-01T21:32:00.000+08:00

Wanted to do project since bibi's over in M'sia.
But ended up sleeping half my day away ):
How I wish school won't start that early so I have more time to do my projectssss.

Happy 5th Monthsary my love ♥

2010-12-30T01:55:00.000+08:00

Happy happy happy <3

Seoul garden + pool + movie with bibi today! :D
Seoul garden: Meat meat and more meat! LOL! (Y) But eat till damn full and bibi was feeling sick that time so it wasn't that good. Plus he keep bully me. ):
Pool: Bibi won every round but i had pretty much fun practising xD Bibi wait till I become more experienced okay! :DD
Movie: Gulliver's travel!! Funnayeeee. Hahahah, glad we were lucky enough to have the center row out of the 3/4 full theater. xD Wanted to go cycle at first but sadly they're closing at 7pm ): Boohoo.

Sighhhh, I really don't want school to start. Have too much time with bibi now I scared when school reopens I won't be able to get used to it & it'll all go back to how it used to be D:

Can you feel forever? :)

2010-12-25T18:04:00.000+08:00

I love how things are improving between me and bibi lately.

It's like we haven't been so happy for a very long time.

I love you baby. That's all you need to know :)

Day 08: Short term goals for this month and why.

2010-12-19T23:02:00.000+08:00

#1: Salvage my relationship :/
#2: Chiong projects.
#3: Spend time whenever possible with love (L)
#4: Do some shopping if got $$
#5: Make sure I don't neglect my boyf. :3
#6: Have a clique outing soon.
#7: Have a Happy New Year (:

I miss you, I miss us.

2010-12-19T22:15:00.005+08:00

Bibi,

What happened? What happened to us? ): Can we be like before again? I'm sorry bout today. Bad bad day. I'm sorry sorry sorry. I know even if I say a million times of sorry it still won't be enough. I wish I could do something bout it. Shouldn't have sat at the staircase for hours today. I'm sorry. Shouldn't have been so bored and change that fck attitude of mine. I'm sorry. Always taking you for granted ): I'm sorry. Wish we didn't have to be apart, so we could make up even if we quarreled. I'm sorry. I wanted us to be like other happy couples. I mean it. I'm sorry. For always finding fault in you. I'm sorry.. Everything I do or say seems to be wrong now. Maybe I should just shut the fuck up.

Forgive me.

FML

2010-12-02T21:15:00.003+08:00

FUCK MY LIFE FOR TALKING ABOUT MATH.

Seriously, I'm not gonna talk to you till you talk to me from now.

This is ridiculous. When you're angry, I tried and tried till you get okay.

But when it's me. You only try for one time, & you're tired.

Fuck this shit.

I already did. (L)

2010-11-30T08:42:00.000+08:00

4th month anni with bibi yesterday!

It's been so long since we never get upset when we meet,

loved yesterdayy much :)

& I trust you bibi! ;

in fact I already did some time back.

Saranghae (L)

Happy 4th Monthsary my love ♥

2010-11-28T18:15:00.003+08:00

Well, let’s start it off simple.

I love you(: Haha.

Was supposed to blog tmr but I scared I forget things that I wanna say.

Well, i think i'm gonna just say things that i love about you today. :)

So yeah. I love your name.

It's pretty unique plus funny with that "nerd". :p

I love the fact that you think I'm cute, when I'm not.

I love how we used to lay down and look at the stars at night.

I love how we tease each other at times. xD

I love how you smile cheekily at me after you poke or squeeze me. :x

I love how you sing.

Though it's pretty high pitch for a guy but you always hit the right note. :D

I love how you dress :)

I love your smile, a lot, not my first time saying here,

but I just want you to know how much i loved it. :p

I love how you're such a little boy at times:x

It's cute! I mean it!

I love your hugs and kisses.

I love your pinky. It's way longer than mine!

I love your eyelashes too, they're so nice to touch. xD

But most of all, I love it when you say you miss me.

Our frequency of emotions may be changing from high to low or vice versa every time,

but there's one thing that wouldn't change.

& that's my love for you babyy.
I hope you know that I love you more than all these reasons,
I love you for you.

You're my one & only, forever & after.

I love you.

Maybe it's not, maybe it is.

2010-11-28T17:55:00.000+08:00

Maybe it’s not about the cute pictures to show off to the whole world how cute you guys are. Buying matching outfits so everyone knows that you’re officially taken. Receiving those good morning and good night texts so they know that you’re thinking about them. Making out in front of everyone because you don’t think your hormones can save it for later. Walking each other to class so they stay on your mind throughout the whole period. Offering your jacket to her so that the scent sticks with her even when you’s not there. Correct me if I’m wrong, but maybe it’s not about any of that.

Maybe it’s about learning to love someone just as much as you love yourself. Getting to know someone better so you can discover who you are along the way. Accepting their flaws so you realize that no one is perfect. Sacrificing for them so you won’t be accustomed to being selfish. Giving each other faith to make their dreams into a reality. Filling in that empty gap so they can finally feel like a whole.

Day 07: A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on me.

2010-11-28T17:36:00.000+08:00

Well, I wanted to put a picture of my boyfriend but realise I don't have any ):
So I'm just gonna put the 2nd biggest thing that impact me the most.

TEEHEEEE! ^^V
But it made me have such fat thighs, boohoo ):

..be my penguin?

2010-11-28T17:24:00.003+08:00

Day 06: Favourite Superhero & why.

2010-11-28T16:36:00.001+08:00

IRON MANNNNN! Idk why, I just thought he's cool and everything. \m/
But nothing beats my boyf, he's the best of the best :)

& just a little blogging which I haven't been doing for pretty long.
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Last night went over to my ex-cca's barbecue (Y)
Had wings, hot dogs, otahs, satays & garlic bread :D
The best thing was that it's free. LOL! Awesome. (Y)
Thanks baby for accompanying me there, had fun teasing you xD
But somehow things didn't turn well in the end. :/
I know the reason why now, but I can't turn back time. How I wish..

I love you baby, there's always a next time, how bout tmr? (L) :x

Hey Natalieeee.

2010-11-28T16:34:00.000+08:00

Thought I'd just dedicate a post to you since I'm pretty bored right nao.

Hmmm, that day when you sent the sms, I think it was just the day before ysd?, I was pretty shocked.
I mean, you don't seem to be that kind of person who'd type those kind of stuffs la.
To us, you're a pretty good friend, just that you talk a lot. More than average. Lols.
Yes, it might be a good thing at times. But not everytime.
When we have to listen during lectures, I hope you'd do the same.
Cause if you don't, you're just distracting people around you, I hope you get what I mean.
It's not that lectures are useless, it's just whether you choose to think it's useless or not.
If you wanna talk, go ahead, but not that loud. Or at least, I hope you're discussing about what the lecturer is teaching.
Sorry if me or others might have said to you things that are too straightforward.
But I just thought that this kind of thing you have to know ma.
If not it'll not only drag your grades down, but all of ours.
& even if we form study group, it won't be efficient if there's no one who understands and can teach.
You know yourself that you're a fast learner & you teach well.
So the more you must listen so can teach us ma!
Not everyone is like you, for example me, I'm a good learner, just not a good teacher.

So yeah, we'll try to understand that it's been your habit for talking more than average last time, but you have to put yourself in our shoes too. We aren't. Hope you're feeling better already by the way. Don't think too much into it anymoreeee. We still got our term test to worry for :(

To my Baby..

2010-11-27T23:51:00.000+08:00

Cheer up babyy. I'm always here if you need a listening ear. You just have got to open your mouth and talk to me. Or at the least, text me. Let me know how you're feeling. I'm always here. I don't wanna be invisible. I want you to know that if there's anything wrong, I'm here for you. Speak up. Yes, things might not turn out the way we want, but if you don't speak up, nothing will change. & that's even worst. Just let me know when you need me, & I will be. I just need you to tell me.& I'll be there to listen. Saranghae (L)

Teehee, my boyf rawks :)

2010-11-21T01:47:00.007+08:00

My boyf is awesome today.
I like how you say what is a boyf for today when I lost my wallet. Thanks baby ♥
But that's not all a boyf is for, i love you muchie (:
I like how the way you get angry at me for not eating. Though it's not exactly a very nice thing to like but I still like it. :p
& lastly, I like how you don't look at girls that much anymore. (Y)

For some reason, you just make my day every time I'm with you.
I love how you kiss my forehead, my nose and my cheeks.
I love the way how you act like a kid.
I love the way you speak in a funny voice.
But definitely not that monstrous voice of yours last night. xD

There're times where you're so cute, & I just can't stop laughing at you.
There're times where you're so irritating, when you keep on squeezing me leg! x|
But then again, it's itchy! LOL XP
There're times where you're so lovable, it makes me wanna be with you forever.
But there're also times where you're so ARGH, epecially when you plug in your earpiece & listen to your songs. ):

There's just so many reasons why I love you.
I could spend hours writing them everyday.
But if you just ask me face to face, my mind goes blank all of a sudden & idk why. :x
I just love you bi, that's all you need to know. Saranghae. (L)

Opps, I said to sleep at 1am & I'm still down here blogging for you. Uh-ohhhh. I shall go sleep nao. Kthxbai~!

Dear Boyf,

2010-11-18T01:27:00.000+08:00

Day 05: A picture of somewhere I've been to.

2010-11-17T23:51:00.000+08:00

The Singapore Flyer

Went once only. The view was great :)
However it was pretty scary when you stand at near the railings.
Cause when you look down, everything looked so small.
Imagine if you fell all the way down from there. Ouh mai gawd. :O
Alrights, that's all. The End.

Last ccn preparation!

2010-11-17T23:38:00.002+08:00

Cookie baking with sisters today. I was late, as usual when we meet outside school. :x

It was fun, but most of the credits goes to Von & Jo :)

Psps project after that, but Jo had to leave for work. Sadded.

I still haven't started doing though. Damn.

Gonna wake up earlier or bring my laptop tmr go chiong.

Went to downtown, played Gaga taptap.

Super hard la siah the extreme.

Inhuman.

Fish & co. for dinner after that, plus x-rider marathon again!

Glad that Jo's working there,

but too bad von had to leave early! Aww.

One of us always have to leave for something else -.-

Ahah, waited for cab with Nat for like over 10mins, but to no avail.

So just took bus 3 in the end.

Blahblah.

I wish you would change, but I shall not expect much,

for you don't expect much from me. I'll respect that. If it's what you want.

I love you. Truly madly deeply.

I mean it.

I missed, I wished.

2010-11-17T23:11:00.000+08:00

It's glad to know you that you miss me.

It's nice to know that you're still possessive in some way.

I miss you too, in fact, I miss us.

We were happy when we have outings together..

I miss those times.

I miss you tickling me, though I hate being tickled.

I miss you smelling my hair,

I miss you every day, but it's not possible for me to meet you everyday.

Sigh. ):

I wish we won't have to study.

I really want a wish right now.

Reasons why I love you.

2010-11-16T20:51:00.001+08:00

I'll give you reasons why I'm really in love with you
I can give you all these reasons why I'm never leaving you

1. Your smile, that always looks so charming.
2. Your hugs and all the things you've showed me.
3. The way you look at me when you say "I love you".
4. Your cute personality.
5. Your take-charge capability, sometimes.
6. The ring,
7. The sweet messages,
8. The love you ever gave me.
9. The way you spend on me even though I got my own money.
10. For always being yourself regardless of how I or anyone else felt.
11. Knowing just what I need sometimes even when I didn't make it clear for you to see.
12. For being understanding when that time comes, you know what I mean.
13. For your attractiveness, inside and out.
14. The way you could go for other girls, but you didn't because of your love for me.
15. For the way you quit your game, when you talk to me.
16. The way you hold my hand, when we were both angry.
17. Chasing after me at times, when I was angry.
18. Being possessive, & you said you'll always be.
19. The way you said I was your only one, forever and always.
20. The way you apologise, after everytime you get mad at me.
21. When you say you can't even bear to ignore me for long even if you want.
22. When you told me you like it when I keep smsing you.
23. When you tell me you really don't wanna breakup the next day after you said it.
24. When you said you'll "yang" me when we grow older.
25. When you told me how scared you'll be after you go NS.
26. When you say that you'll love me forever.
27. When you said you never felt like giving up on me anymore.
28. When you told me you'll love me for who I am.
29. When you say you have faith in me.

All these small things, matters to me. & it's just a little text from you would've made my day so much better.

Baby I love you.

Day 04: A habit that I wish I didn't have.

2010-11-16T19:51:00.000+08:00

The habit of losing things.

I really hate it. Hate it when I can't find my stuffs.

Especially when I lost something important to me or expensive,

my mom would nag at me. I hate that.

Hate myself for giving her the chance to nag me.

I wanna be the best I can be, so that she has nothing to say.

So that in the end she'll regret how she use to treat me while I was trying my very best.
I wish I had someone to rely on.
I wish I could always make things right.
I wish, I wish, I wish...

I could really use a wish right now.

Day 03: A picture of you and your friends.

2010-11-16T19:41:00.004+08:00

This was a photo taken back then during our first class chalet.

We all seemed so happy :) If time could rewind, I'd use it wisely.

I'd like things to go back to how it used to be.

& I need to feel needed sometimes.

2010-11-14T22:56:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Natalie!

2010-11-14T22:48:00.003+08:00

Hey girl, Happy 17th Birthday! You're the last among us 4 to celebrate your birthday, pretty sad thing don't ya think? hahah! Though sometimes you might tell people the wrong info, bully Yvonne always, going around poking people, always hungry every now and then, but still, you've been a wonderful person to be with :) Just gonna wish you a Happy Happy Birthday, & last long with your guy ;D

Day 02: The meaning behind my blog name.

2010-11-14T21:19:00.000+08:00

I don't know.. this would have been much easier to answer if i had my old blog name still. I don’t know the meaning behind my blog name now. It’s just my name written in reverse with a dash just after the r. There’s really nothing to it. Lame answer, but whatever.

Day 01: A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself.

2010-11-13T23:47:00.005+08:00

If only I have no panda eyes.

1. I'm am a very easy to get jealous person.
2. I like durians.
3. I would rather take a longer road than to walk pass ahbengs/lians.
4. I like to be know that I'm loved.
5. I hate my panda eyes.
6. I have trouble to stop laughing once I start.
7. I'm a workaholic, if I had a job.
8. I am not as smart as what people think I am.
9. I have a short pinky.
10. I wish my hair was thick....thicker.
11. I have fat thighs.
12. I love eating chicken.
13. I hate spending money.
14. Cute stuffs never fail to make me go, so cuteeee!
15. I lose things easily, like reaaaaaaaaaally easily.

30 day challenge~

2010-11-13T23:14:00.007+08:00

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

Always have, always will.

2010-11-13T10:43:00.005+08:00

I love you,
I always have & I always will,
from the very start.

When I met you,
I fell in love with your smile, your eyes,
I just love you.

Happy 100th day ♥

2010-11-06T17:39:00.013+08:00

Teehee! ^-^V Snapped a photo of Bibi quite some time ago while he was "resting". Hahahah. He should be in J.B. together with his family by now. Hope he's having fun :) Went past his blog, read the post during Halloween's. Sigh, we sounded so happy that day ♥ Sorry for the quarrels recently again. Probably it has been quite some time since we last quarreled. Had to release some of it I guess. :x

Hmmm, everything's been so packed together. Our third month, Bibi's birthday, and of course, my 100th day with him. I'm spending too much, with all those shopping too, WAY TOO MUCH :x Hahahah, had to start saving again, like now. It's almost 3rd week of school & I felt like I haven't learn anything in school yet. Except from Jap classes which I enjoyed conversing in with Bibi. Lol! This Oji-san everytime scold me Baka one, I WANT COMPLAIN. XP

Went out with Bibi yesterday by the way:) He's cute to the max. I love you loads! ♥ Firstly we went to The Cathay for NUM college shirts. We went to 2 other outlets at Heeren and Cineleisure too to ask for sizes because Bibi wanted to buy it so so much you see. & so we walked from here to there, and there to here. In the end, we were back at the very first outlet we went & we found out that it's the only outlet which has the color and size he wants-.- The weather was pretty hot then & I was perspiring here and there already from the hot hot sun.

Halfway through, we went to Lucky Plaza & ate Pizzahut! :D Heee ^-^V He wanted to go toilet & he was pretty pissed when he realised that he had to pay 20c to go to that kind of toilet. LOL, his expression and the way he say it was cute ttm, & he was still wondering why I was laughing at him. xD We ordered 2 pan pizzas; one hawaiian, one meat loafer; 1 garlic bread, 2 coke and 6 spicy chicken drumlets. I always eat until super full when I'm with him (Y) & I could never get enough of hugs from him idk why ♥ hahaha :)

At night we went back to his place to put his stuffs before we went to makan JustAcia. Though we just ate the day before. Haha! :p Ate the soft shell crab + tereyaki chicken meal. Before the meal start we already drank like 2 cups of pepsi. LOL. He ahhhh, BTH. xP After dinner, it was back to his house again. Stayed till 9.30pm, though we said in the first place we'll leave his house at 8 before his parents were back. But oh wells, didn't keep track of time :x

Yeah but anyways, he sent me to the bus stop otw down, we saw loads of snails! Eeeeew!

Home sweet home after that; webcam-ed with Bibi. ♥

You always make my day darling, always :))

Happy Birthday in advance bibii :)

2010-11-01T20:23:00.002+08:00

SOMEONE'S FINALLY GONNA BE 17. LIKE FINALLY. AHAHAHAH :P

Happy 3rd Monthsary my love ♥

2010-10-30T00:20:00.010+08:00

Happy happy 3rd month! :D
Went to meet bibi after school at mushroom then we went to TM with his friend as he wanted to buy a birthday gift for his classmate. Carl's Junior with bibi was next after that. Wa, it's been sucha long time since I ate CJ &1amp; the burger is like super big la. Almost as big as my face. Haha, had fun playing with bibi, he's so lame cum childish! xD

Hahahah, after that we dragged out feets to Bugis as we were feeling reallyyyyy full. Lol! Walked around junction to see if anything caught bibi's eyes, but he is seriously too picky !! :p Hahahah. So we proceeded to street instead. & yes, once again nothing was bought. :x I was tired so we went to sit a little while by the McDonald & not long after it drizzled -.- So we went back to TM's 77th street to see if there's anything i could get for him as his birthday pressie. &&&& YES! We've finally bought a shirt that he liked :D I love you darling, maxest ever <3

Slacked at arcade after that cause there's not much place to sit around in TM. After awhile we've decided to go back to his place cause I was really tired le. But in the end when reach his place he also don't let me sleep! RAWR! Plus his dog is super cute. Hahah.

Went out for Halloween night with a few of his cousins after that . The "ghosts" came out walking around downtown east. It was fun looking at the, but hell it was scary when they approached! Even though I knew they were like real humans and all that. It's just basic girl's reaction okay. hahah! :p

After that went back to his house get my things den go home le. He still go for supper with his family! LIKE A PIG ONLY. LOL! :X Okay, I shall go finish my porridge first. If not he going to say me again . XD ~~

Thursday's outing!

2010-10-22T01:15:00.002+08:00

Went out with love today! ♥
It didn't started out very well at first cause we somehow quarreled again in the morning.
Ate @ Pizza hut! Yummy much! Long time never eat le ^-^
Bibi so naughty! Anyhow put pepper, cheese in my drink!!
& when i opened the cheese cover to just pour cheese out of the jar he go tap so hard alot of cheese come out! RAWR!
After pizzza-ing, things somehow got worst againnn.
He keep ownself listen song den bu cai wooo. Sad much. :(
We were supposed to go Bugis at first, but looking at the state we were in at that point of time, i thought maybe we shouldn't go to Bugis anymore..
So we alighted at whatever stop we were at, and sat down there.
Well, things got better and worse and better again after buying the drink at cheers, :p
Hahah, den i requested to go watch movie at 5.10pm :) If not also nothing dooo.
Watched tongyannnn! Wa the movie I really chuatio a few times sia.
It's the sudden-ness plus sound effect lor! LOL. But I guess it wasn't bad at all ;D
Much much better than shock of labyrinth! :x
After movie went to eat dinner ~ We didn't really eat much for dinner though.
Only chicken rice. & I'm hungry now..! ): I think he's hungry tooo :x
Oh wellls, I enjoyed myself during all of these outings!
Guess it's gonna be quite rare when school starts ):
Just hope that things remain like how it is now. God bless please.

Wednesday's outing!

2010-10-22T01:00:00.005+08:00

Was supposed to be home alone today. But in the end my sister said she's not coming home for dinner so i had to like bring her stuffs to her at Raffles place. After I passed her her books & make-up pouch, I went window shopping @ Bugis street alone! Then some cheena woman come ask me if I wanna be model, told her I dowan for at least 5 times, & she can't even get my name spelt right! I tou xiang cause she said I can don't reject the offer if I'm asked again. Shyte her. Like wth lor, random can o.O Was supposed to shop for my bag thoughh but I couldn't really decide which suits me better so I didn't buy in the end. Oh man.. Guess I'll have to wait till the next time I go there! ):

Tuesday's outing!

2010-10-22T00:59:00.006+08:00

We went to Bedok 85 without Von this time! :(
Aww, there's always bound to be someone who's not free on that day D:
So bo bian~ We had to go without her cause she needa work~
Btw, I ordered Chicken Chop, BBQ wings, & chicken/pork satays! :D
Carnivore on the run. LOL!
Yummyyyzxc!! :) But in the end eat till damn full.
It's like there's so much things you want to eat & you just can't help but buy till you realise you ordered a lil too much. Hahah!
After that we went to walk around the whole pasar malam.

The Domo bag there is like so cheap! $19?!

Should I get it !? Hmmmmm.

Monday's outing!

2010-10-22T00:58:00.005+08:00

Teeheee! Had a great time with sisters during Monday's outing :)
We went for Seoul Garden, so much MEAT!!!! RAWR. LOLOL!
Now Natalie also call me carnivore le! Sad much know. ):
.........................But I guess that's the fact. HAHAH!
Neoprint session was next! One word to describe in the end, HILARIOUS. :D
Joleen can go pai horror movie le! She looks damn scary at the background! hahah!
After that went to catch Reign of assassins without Jo cause she got band D:
The movie was alright laa, typical chinese action pack movie though :)
Home sweet home after that! Seeing them tmr again! ]: LOL! Just kiddingg :))

Just what can i possibly do?

2010-10-17T00:42:00.002+08:00

My boyfriend annoys the shit out of me, pisses me off when I'm happy, make me laugh like crazy, make me angry all the time, piaks me when he's happy, makes me cry, laugh at me when I made a mistake but the truth is, he's all that I ever wanted & he's the only one that can make me happy.

Saranghae ♥

2010-10-14T12:17:00.004+08:00

Second and last day of work ysd. Natalie taught me how to slack! Hahah. Lazy bum!
Halfway through bibi text me, happy much :) Great day to start with~
So waiting for 18th! Finally going Bedok 85 there makan with clique.
Don't know say how long already sia!! XP

After work I went home den go meet bibi. Otw there, I saw Bedok got Pasar Malam!!:D
It's been so long since I ate food from there! Yummy muchhh. (Y)
He bought Kebab, & it cost like $5!? :O So expensivee, but okay la, it's not bad~
He introduced me to soursop, which was pretty nice to eatt, but i still prefer longans!
When almost going home le he called home to ask if they want eat anything from there.
And........his father want smelly tofu. LOLOL!
臭豆腐真的是臭死人了!!
Starting I couldn't smell until anything, maybe cause I was too short. LOL:x
But after that we went closer to dabao & I finally smelt it. haahahah, stinkkk like hell!!
Then got one old aunty smell until then come ask us whether here selling smelly tofu.
I said yeahh, then she say we 厉害, can stand the smelly-ness of it. xD
In my head I was thinking like, got smell meh? :x Cause that time I still couldn't smell anything. :x

&& Bibi keep saying I carnivoreeeee!!! RAWR! I'm not!
I just love eating meat. :x It as around 10plus when we reached pasir ris,
Good thing we both shun lu, can take same bus~ ♥
Was pretty happy ysd, it's been so long since I saw him that happy.
But I was just scared that he's faking it, seriously:x
Shall believe him this time round :p Glad to see that he's happyyy :)

Thanks for making the effort. I can see that you're trying now.
I love you ♥

Don't give up on me.

2010-10-12T09:53:00.009+08:00

I'm not an expert at relationships. I don't know how to handle every fight we're going to have, and I will never be a perfect person. We're both still young, and we still have a lot more to learn. But I'm willing to take chances, to risk it all, and learn everything there is to know just so I can keep us together. I won't give up on you.

I saw you, I met you, I knew you, I want you, I got you. & now, all I need is you. I♥U 1314.

For you,

2010-09-29T17:18:00.003+08:00

I'll give no matter how much i take.

& I forgot about this. Glad I'm being reminded by my blog. <3

Happy 2nd Monthsary my love ♥

2010-09-29T15:56:00.006+08:00

We've been through quite a lot since our first month,
& I'm so glad we're still together now.
Lesser heartbreaks, in fact almost none at all now. ♥
Probably it's because we've been truthful to each other,
Plus having those heart-to-heart talks.
It really made my heart felt lighter every time we talked about how we feel inside. ♥

& I wanna thank you for being understanding at times too,
Sorry if I've neglected you for the past few days due to work..
But I'm happy for you as you've found yourself a jobb too. :)
Working in Uniqlo need to keep our phones inside the lockers ):
So I can only contact you during my break time, which is like only 1.5hrs out of 10.5hrs..
I even have problem telling what time is it while working already,
Thank god I have my colleagues around to tell me what time is it. (Y)

I miss you so much during work, but there's nothing I can do to change it..
By the time I reach home you're probably too tired for me already,
So I can only let you go sleep.. T.T
But it's okayy, cause it'd be my turn to suffer when you're the one who's working.. D:
Just to warn you first, I'm having mood swings easily nowadays ah, ;)

I'll just end of my post with this;
I love you just the way you are, no matter what ♥

Boring, lonely Saturday.

2010-09-25T14:37:00.002+08:00

Why must the rain be pouring down on me when I'm having my off day! ):
Super duper tired, but I just can't stand the thot of staying at home when I'm not working.
Gahhhh. He's so dumb, ask me out directly will die meh! :/
After 5th Oct jiu can go out with him lerrrrrr. <3
However, he seems to be upset.. & idk how to change that :/
Useless girlfriend. Sigh.
After his last text saying "Okay bye.", I hope he's feeling fine by now..
& sorry I didn't wanna go queenstown, was just too tired le.

I'm so hungry ): Like eat finish 3/4 of my lunch le my stomach is still growling?
I miss him, but it seems like we have nothing to text about on the phone anymore..
T.T

Anyways, I wonder if I should take the extra CDS. I spotted Jap in there!!!
Wanna take it, but I scared it's tough. Should I ??????? :O

We almost lost it.

2010-09-23T01:28:00.002+08:00

Things I would do to change it all.

~~1, Look at you whenever you look at me.~~

2, Never show you attitude or whatsoever.

~~3, Try to be less sensitive to itchy-ness, but sometimes people just can't control their body!~~

4, Never walk out on you or let you walk out on me.

~~5, Promise to let you kiss me whenever you want.~~

~~6, Let you treat me, sometimes!~~

~~7, Sometimes I won't let you treat ma, so push the money sometimes is okay ba:x~~

8, Let you buy clothes for me if we go shopping tgt (Y)

~~9, Try to go town more often, but for that to happen, you'll have to ask me out :p~~

10, Be less jealous.

11, Take photos with you, though we rarely meet :D

12, Doubt you no more <3

Tralalala, I have no idea what to name this post.

2010-09-21T17:43:00.003+08:00

Hehehehehe, finally found a job, but only for 2 weeks oh ):
Sian. Holidays are going to end soon!! D:
I can't wait for my results,
I can't wait for my hearts to complete,
I can't wait for my work to start,
I can't wait for holidays to end!

Ilovewaynardttmaxest ♥
though he makes me cry,
though he makes me upset,
though he always piak my pigu,
though he treats me cold at times,
though he ignores me when he's angry,
though he looks at other girls when he's with me,
but i love him..
because of the kiddish smile he has,
because of the how sweet he can get when he wants,
because of the childish personality that's so totally cute,
because of the way he makes me feel when i'm with him,
because of the spikey hair that never fails to tickle me, EVER,
because of the times where we use to joke around and fuss and fight,
because of every little thing about him, makes me love him even more :)

Hopefully this r/s will last, don't have to be forever, just eternity will do.
LOL, just kidding. What's meant to be will always be ♥

The start of 1.1's ending.

2010-09-06T21:28:00.000+08:00

Mathematics 1 , out first exam . Was awesome shit !
The questions kept me thinking , love challenging questions for some reasons :p
Hahahah , tomorrow's Engfund paper !
Let's hope all will not just pass , but pass with flying colours ! :D
Jyjyjy , just two more days to go & we're gonna start 1.2 in 1.5 months! <:

First Month , with loves :)

2010-08-30T00:43:00.004+08:00

Happy happy first month darlinggg !
Thank you for everything , gimme some time to repay you after exams ! (:

Met him @ 1pm , first time he's ever earlier than me , like seriously .
I knew he bought me something -.- KNEW IT ! X(
But nvms , actuallyyyyy , i also wrote him a letter , but didn't dare to give idk why . LOL
So i kept it in my pocket the whole time :x But it's okay , I'll pass it to him some other time ^-^

Anws , it's our first trip to town together ! Cause i rarely go there :x
The main reason of course is *go town equals a lot of money spent* ,
& obviously i don't like that :/ Sorry darlingggg <3
Hahahah, but we still went today , cause I know that's one of his wish :p

Firstly, window shopping @ Somerset , he keep wanting to buy me clothes ! RAWR !
But of course , that's not gonna happen cause town area clothes are too mature :)
Off to Cine leisure after that , I guess I'm not that much of a road idiot after all XP
Ahahahah , walked around , saw that Domo backpack ): like a cute only ~
Got our very first ring ! :D The reason why rings are wore on the fourth finger ........
Me: *shows how it's done* Bi: "Eh? Really cannot ley!" Hahahah , cute max <3
While waiting for our rings to be engraved , we went all the way down to BFF .
(Best Fries Forevers) - They're hiring ! xD
It was really fun eating with bibi , he's so fun to play with sometimes :p

Neoprint taking was next after we collected our rings ! Beautiful , :)
Two sua kus taking neo prints , how can ! hahahahahahh .
Omgod la , really too long never take alrdy . Feels so weird .
But I thought it turned out alright in the end , except for the eye part . LOL !
After everything , we slacked awhile before moving on to Ion Orchard ;D
Walked around , pretty high class over there so we couldn't do much .
Bibi bought Mocha Frappe , don't really like but still shared with him since he's thirsty :p

Went back to tampines cause i felt like eating LJS ! Most awesome-st fast food ever <3
That's about all of yesterday's outing with love , i love you ........... most . (:

8 X-Rider rides marathon !

2010-08-26T19:05:00.007+08:00

Woots ! Went to dte bk to study at first , from 10am - 1pm .
After that lunched @ Just Acia ;
My chocolate ice cream float (Pepsi) done by Yvonne is totally awesome to the max .
It was just so nice to drink ;
tasting the lumps of ice cream mixed together with half a cup of pepsi left (after the gas on the top is gone) is just too delicious !

What a wonderful experience I had today , next time go Just Acia be sure to ask Yvonne to serve for you ! (Y) Best service guaranteed ;D

Right after this fulling meal , we actually went to ride the X-rider !!?!?
Omgosh , the first time riding it i could almost feel the vomit right up in my throat . LOL
But for the first ride , it was awesome max , laughed till bth already .
Then we continued for another 7 rounds !? Tried different themes and all , WHATAMARATHON !
Yvonne kept screaming & even covered her eyes during the ride ! Seriously funny like hell .
But of course , there were the not-so-good sides for girls .
Becauseeeeeeee , erm , yeah . All the SHEs should know what I mean :D

越来越爱 :)

2010-08-25T22:58:00.003+08:00

Bibi's getting more and more bhb nowadays !
Hahahahh , really is "tak boleh tahan ahs" ! ♥

Study was okokay today lahhs , just that eyes keep wanna close .
I've been laughing the wholeee of today it seems ! Lots of funny things happened .
Or maybe it's because it's been a day since i laughed that hard ,
that's why when laugh cannot stop :x

Anws , Bi told me thatt his mom's slipper spoilt today .
I seriously don't know what's so funny about this but I just can't stop laughing ! >.<
Then it was that "stinky" experience @ dte's bk , seriously funny max !
Bi kept complaining smelly then we had this funny scribbling conversation on whichever paper that was lying on the table .
Totally cannot stop laughing , I'm even smiling while reminiscing it now ? hahah ! :x

Howeverrrr , it wasn't totally all that great at night .
I reached home at around 6plus , slept , woke up , the house was so dark & no one was home .
Went to bathe , received 3 calls , 1 from dad , 2 from bro .
Dad came home , ranted at me . I'm like wtf !?
I mean seriously , there's no need to shout right ??
He's being really unreasonable . Very unreasonable in fact .
He was angry at me for not answering his call , angry at me for not telling him I was gonna dinner at home .
I shouted back , I was at home right !? Did you even noticed !? How the hell do you want me to answer your call right from the bathroom ?? You plant one telephone there lah !
He den lowered down his volume and talked nicely to me .
Like wth ? I just took money & got walked right now of the house after that .

Chatted with bi on the phone , thanks for being there & not being there at the same time xD
Super noisy la sial ! Keep hearing him mumble & have to guess what he just said >.<
But anyways , still glad he didn't say stuffs like he's busy or what to end the call , :)
Feeling much much much much muchhhhh better nows :D

Didn't hang out much with ♥ today , gonna make it up on Friday ! :D

我比谁都更明白你的重要 , (:

2010-08-24T18:24:00.004+08:00

Study group was somehow effective for me today , though i didn't do much .
Teaching people is a good way of learning :)
Drank 2 cups of bubble tea today zomg x.x Really becoming like bbtea freak le ! D:

Anws , saw bibi posted the lyrics in his facebook , so i went to listen the song (Y) :

你身上专属的陌生味道
是我确认你存在的目标
不用来回张望了
知道今世我们相隔着一个街角
这么久了还是可以看到
感觉的到你对我的重要
不会被天黑天亮打扰
你每一次的温柔我都想炫耀
我们绕了这么一圈才遇到
我比谁都更明白你的重要
沉默久了我就决定了
决定了你的手我握了不会放掉
我答应自己不再庸人自扰
因为我要的我自己知道
只要你的肩膀依然让我靠

I miss you .

2010-08-24T08:48:00.004+08:00

Going out to study soon with clique tgt with Raymond & Calvin later on ! (Y)
Gonna start on my business , seriously . Cannot always hug Buddha's leg .

& I wonder how he's feeling right now , probably better after a good nights' sleep (:
Can't wait till he wakes up ! :D

也许话说得太早 ,

2010-08-23T23:03:00.004+08:00

Yeah , FML .

Step Up 3 ♥

2010-08-23T22:00:00.006+08:00

Most awesome-st movie currently . It's definitely a must watch aye ! :)
Caught this movie with bi on the day it was released ;
He just couldn't wait for another day ! Hahah ♥
My favourite character was this guy who moves , or rather dance , like a robot .
He is damn freaking awesomezxc i swear .
He's like a freako ! But a fantastic one definitely (Y) :D

In a blink of an eye.

2010-08-23T20:24:00.005+08:00

Life in Poly is seriously VERY fast , no joke .
Countdown to exams : 14 DAYS !?!?!?

Geeez , maybe it's because of having great friends & everythin' ;
No more FMLs , shitty crap stuffs & etc .
I mean , what more can I ask for , right ? :)

Life's great .

GPA 4! Chiong ahhhhh.

2010-07-13T18:39:00.001+08:00

Sighssss, Natalie say it's impossible for me to get GPA 4 cause my term test only 3.7+ ):
Sadded mans. But nehmind, gonna try really hard for the remaining two years!

New announcement!
Best daytona player is currently RAYMOND! Awwwwwws.
Sad right, so there's no need for celebrationg please! Ahahahah:p
But yeah, if I never langa still got chance beat him one! *Looks on the bright side.
Muahahahahah. Can't wait for holidays to come!
So wanna go ice skating ):

GPA 4, here I come! Chiong arh chiong arh chiong arh! (Y)

Mini class gathering, daytona!!

2010-06-19T23:34:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went out with Yvonne, Natalie, Wanling, Ivan, Yaohua and Changhong! (Y)
Went to buy Toy Story 3 tickets @ 4plus before heading to Ikea for dinner.
Too bad no photos were taken on that day!! ):
After dinner, we showed Yaohua & Ivan Natalie's favourite hobby! :DD
Earned $5 in like 10mins time! (:

After that we went back to tampines & played daytona !
Pwn-ed Yaohua, Ivan for the first time. They don't believe they will lose me.....
& so, we had a rematch and Natalie joined us too! :)
At first they wanted to gangbang me, but end up they bang amongst themselves. HAHA! V^-^V
Ivan was like, "Walao Jennifur so fast, Jennifur so fast!" all the way la!
Laughed alot while playing. DAYTONA FTWWW!

After arcade we waited for Raymond to join us for the movie before entering.
Movie was great! Though i can't really remember what happened in TS1&2. LOL
It was touching at some parts, funny at some parts, bored at some too:x
But overall it was still alright! LOVE MR POTATO!!!! HE'S SO EPIC. HAHA (Y)
Can't wait for the next mini gathering again ~

Two weeks term break!

2010-06-16T19:34:00.005+08:00

Alright.....It's like 2 weeks plus since i last blogged about anything.

This 2 weeks of holiday I've spent aaalot. Sigh. Be it movies, food or even my travel expenses.
I have already topped up my ezlink card for like twice in just 2 weeks time!?
Maybe I should like stay out of town area for now x.x
Gahhhh. Adult fare is totally killing me! ):

Anyways, I watched 3 good movies during this term break!
Firstly it's Prince of Persia, followed by Shrek 4 & A-team ! :D:D
And Toy story 3 this coming Friday with classmates too! Woohoo, excited ttm!

Oh! & today's weather was fantabulous! I slept till soooo shiok lahs ^-^
I hope everyday's weather is like that (Y)(Y)(Y)
2 more days till my blog's 2 years anni. haha!